So most every time I dream about Jayda, I dream of her birth. Very few times I dreamt of her older. But this one is very odd..
I lost a good friend almost 2 years ago. She was only 18, she would have been 19 the following December. She caught the H1N1, but at the time they said it was pneumonia (sp?). She died from it.. She was sick on and off all summer and on September 25th 2009 her heart couldn't take it anymore and gave up. I still have issues with it from time to time, but I'm being able to handle it better. ANYWAYS (had to give a background),, in my dream she ended up not dying... she had to do it to protect her friends and family from something bad. Then she looked at my huge preggo belly and said "it's time" and then bam.. my water broke.
Next thing in the dream was I was taking Jayda home. I didn't see/feel the labor, or the days following in the hospital. It was like I blacked out in the dream. I looked at my daughter and asked all sorts of questions.. How was my labor, did I handle the pain well, did I get to hold her after, etc. And then I realized... she was in a little boy's outfit. I went off.. I had an outfit planned (and I still do.. I have two actually lol and possibly another if we can buy it), and why was she not in the outfit. Koda looked at Casey and they both kinda shrugged. "Because this outfit was there."
I'm truely amazed at my dreams.. one night it's about drinking Smirnoff Green Apple, the next pancakes and hashbrowns (which I still want, btw) and then this. My other birth dreams, I never go through the actual labor.. it goes from water breaking to holding her in my arms or bringing her home.
